Citibank Sweetness!

After signing the contract with Citibank the day before yesterday, I returned to Mellinia Tower yesterday to summit all the forms to the HR officer. Citibank HR Dep is located in level 33 and they have a very nice view over the bay.

Another one from a different angle.

Unfortunately I will not be working there, I have to take 45mins MRT every morning to Tampines Junction. What am I thinking?

After that I went to Citibank Esplanade Branch to open a staff account and I met this young india lady who was given the same position the day before, so we will be colleagues in the next year at least! She has married with 2 children and her whole family have moved here, including her parents. It is always a nice thing to know more about your future working environment and colleagues beforehand.

The staff bank account application went pretty smoothly. Because I will be a Citibank sfaff soon, I naturally had a conversation with this officer Daniel about how life would be in this company, etc. He asked me whether I had any saving or investment plan and gave some advice to me when he heard no. So as the first contribution to the company that I had not yet started working for, I decided to join a 25yr saving plan. Daniel introduced another speciallist Mr Tng, whose wife happens to be working in Citibank as well and holds the same position as me! This is the second colleague that I have known today, and I haven't started to work yet! What a wonderful day! It seems that they have some gifts for all the saving plan partispants. I was given two opitions to choose: iPod shuffle or Sony Walkman Mp3. I chose iPod Shuffle, obviously!

I spotted these cute candies on the table there, and I took three of them back. What a kind of "Citibank Sweetness!".

When I was done there, I went to Republic Plaza for a medical check. Only when did I realized that my day had just started! It took me half an hour to figure out how to get to level 29 and it took another 3 hours to finish all the examation, which includes one hour lunch break! The most astound news is that my vision is only 6/10 now and the doctor recommended glasses! No...I will never wear that piece of shit! I will try to take more care of my eyes and give them more time to rest instead.

I returned home around 4 pm and slept until 8. Then I went to Wuvist's home after that and that is another long story which I am not going to tell here.

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I got a new job!

After so many interviews and months of frusration, I finally got a job in Citi Group as Regional Investment & Treasuary Ops Officer. Start to work next monday! Got a lot of form to fill up tonight!

That's it! I though that I would talk a lot about it, but when it comes, I really don't have anything to say about it! I prefer to stay calm and enjoy my easy days left before I start to work.

He has some foresight and creativity!

I am shocked by this picture when I was browsing my Picasa galley. Does it remind you of anything? Yes, Quick Look in Leopard(bellow). Apple just makes it better in a real Leopard style.

It was a fake picture about Leopard back in Aug 2006, when no one knows anything about what we would get from Leopard. It was done by Eric Patterson during a fake leopard screenshot contest. I don't know if Apple copied his idea or not, but in either way, he does have some foresight and creativity!

It's A Beautiful Day

Today is a very beautiful day, with the sun shining all over the place, from the very deep of my heart, to the very top of the blue sky!

Beautiful Day

The heart is a bloom
Shoots up through the stony ground
There's no room
No space to rent in this town

You're out of luck
And the reason that you had to care
The traffic is stuck
And you're not moving anywhere

You thought you'd found a friend
To take you out of this place
Someone you could lend a hand
In return for grace

It's a beautiful day
Sky falls, you feel like
It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away

You're on the road
But you've got no destination
You're in the mud
In the maze of her imagination

You love this town
Even if that doesn't ring true
You've been all over
And it's been all over you

It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
It's a beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Teach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

See the world in green and blue
See China right in front of you
See the canyons broken by cloud
See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
See the Bedouin fires at night
See the oil fields at first light
And see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
After the flood all the colors came out

It was a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
Beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Reach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

What you don't have you don't need it now
What you don't know you can feel it somehow
What you don't have you don't need it now
Don't need it now
Was a beautiful day

No Feeding of Cats.

Can anyone tell me why?

I am not a pet lover, but if the government really thinks that it is not a good idea to leave so many wild cats out there, why don't they just get them captured and killed? I think that would be better rather than telling people not to feed them.

I don't like pets for a very simple reason: keeping pets is not the way you should treat animals, no matter what kind of feeling you have on them. If you are an animal lover, don't you feel guilty for keeping an active life under your control and preventing it to breathing the fresh air of freedom? If you are someone like me who believe biological competition, then I don't see the difference between pigs and cats, or dogs. So if you are a carnivorous person, meaning you eat certain kind of meat, please don't be so hysterical when you see other people eating dogs or cats. I won't treat them any differently unless I see the point of doing so for the sake of my own benefit. So I cannot understand those people who blame Korean for dog eating while they can eat other kind of meat themselves. I am a dog meat lover myself. Let me tell you this: they are delicious!

Btw, where did these wild cats in Singapore come from at the first place?

Gmail: 4328MB Storage and IMAP!

One of my gmail account has a storage of 4328MB now, while another account has IMAP support now! It seems that IMAP support is on the way out. But how about the 4328 MB storage? Is it a common practice or just for a fraction of all users?

Some people may say that I would never used out all the storage, so 4328 MB is no different from 2000MB. Well, if you are a Gmail regular user, you may want to take back your words. When I first started to use gmail, I though 2GB is more than enough, but when my usage was up to 1GB, I started to think that 2GB is still a little bit small. So I have this strong believe that there will be one day that I feel 4328MB is still too small.

Update:I am pretty sure that this 4328 MB is not solely due to the Infanity+1 Plan, because according to that plan, my Gmail should only have 2916 MB  as shown bellow:

Never take anything as granted!

I saw this in Sheng Siong Supermarket. So are there people who really eat them? I am afraid there are, otherwise they would not put this notice there. O, man! What are they thinking? Do they really think that they are allowed to pick up some nice labelled apples just for a testing? or do they just want to save those few pennies by eating those apples in front of everyone passing by and pretending that they just don't know it is wrong? That's why you should never take anything as granted, otherwise people will use it as excuse for their stupid doings.

Wuvist's iPod Touch

Ok, I admit that I cannot help myself when I knew that Wuvist got an iPod Touch. So I walked to his home around 12:00(luckily we stay very nearby) and played with this little toy for a while. During which Wuvist had it jailbroken and installed some nice apps. Then we went to Mcdonald's. After that, I returned home around 3:00am. I don't want to act like some crazy boy, but I have to say this: iPod Touch is the kind of PDA device that you really want and need! It is freaking cool! Here are some photos that I took using my mobilephone.

Tag: ipod touch, apple, wuvist.

On Dumbledore's gay thing, which one is the news?

So I saw this news in digg: J. K. Rowling at Carnegie Hall Reveals Dumbledore is Gay; Neville Marries Hannah Abbott, and Much More. First of all, I have to say that I am not a big fan of HP and J.K. Rowlilng, so HP guys, don't judge me on that! My first reaction about this "so called news" is asking myself: Which one is the news? Is it the fact that "J.K. Rowling reveals that Dumbledore is gay! " or the fact that "Dumbledore is gay."? They may look like the same, but they are totally different!

For the first one, "J.K.Rowling reveals that Dumbledore is gay!", it is more like something paparazzi would report and it is more about the author rather than the novel itself. After closing the storyline of HP and settling all dusts down, this once-under-the-spotlight media favourate writer cannot bear the loneliness for staying in the shadow. So she magically "found out"  that Dumbledore is gay and being shocked by this "fact", she wants to share it with other people(especially the media who have dumped her for a while). This is like the English version of CHA Leung Yung, isn't it? Do you love this version of news?

Or, by collecting all the clues and hints given in the books, a HP reader, who happens to be the author herself, found out that the author, who happens to be the reader, is hiding some secret in this already closed storyline. Being a big fan of HP herself, she wants to share this piece of speculation with other fans. This one is more about the novel.

No matter which one you like better, it really doesn't matter that much, does it? Because J.K. Rowling is once again back on the newsline, as an authur, or reader of her own book.

Tag: harry potter, dumbledore

God and Evolution!

I saw this in the St. Andrew's Cathedral Welcome Centre. It is the church on top of Cityhall MRT, if you don't know where it is. God and evolution, this is a very interesting question, and also one of the reason that I don't buy the Christian belief!

For me, a student brought up and educated in Darwin's competitive jungle and who studied biology as major, I really don't think it is a good idea for me to throw all these theories away and believe the Legend of Genesis. Because if I do so, I would feel like denying everything in my past and pretending to believe something that I acctually think is stupid(Sorry, Christian folks, I really don't have another proper word for this)! And that would be the last thing I want to do! I know it is another kind of religion if you just be obedience to the science and don't doubt about it at all! And also, there are still scientists who are not buying the concept of evolution, but the bottomline is science makes sence to me, at lease from what I know, both about science and religion! I just don't think it is a very good idea to have some superman to create this world in seven days including ourselves!

But to some people, God and evolution don't necessarily contradict with each other, such as Francis S. Collin, who is a leading scientist working on the Human Genome Project, and yet believes in God and even wrote a book called The Language Of God: A Scientist Presents Evidence for Belief. Here is a interview with Stephen Colbert.

From what he said, 40 percent of working scientists are believers of their personal Gods. That means this is not some kind of rare issue, this is a very common issue faced by the science community as well as our whole society! Even up to now, schools in U.S are still struggling between evolution classes and theology, they just don't know what they should teach their next generation! It is the worst in U.S, why? maybe because of their deeply rooted religious tradition back to the moment Mayflower landed on America soil.

Religion is a very interest topic! I believe in religious freedom, but that doesn't stop me saying something about religions that I don't believe, right? As for my own religion, I used to joked around with my friends with this: "I am an atheist, but ghost scare me to death!"

标签: religion, god, science, stephen colbert

到底还要如何压制？

今天在浏览中文维基百科的时候，无意间逛到了闻一多先生的《最后一次演讲》。发现我们国内学的版本遭到过删减，少了一段文字。这段文字如下：

现在司徒雷登出任美驻华大使，司徒雷登是中国人民的朋友，是教育家，他生长在中国，受的美国教育。他住在中国的时间比住在美国的时间长，他就如一个中国的留学生一样，从前在北平时，也常见面。他是一位和蔼可亲的学者，是真正知道中国人民的要求的，这不是说司徒雷登有三头六臂，能替中国人民解决一切，而是说美国人民的舆论抬头，美国才有这转变。

这里，我们可以展开很多的联想了，比如说这里提到的司徒雷登是不是有些敏感？毕竟同样的课本里面还有另外一篇更加著名的《别了，司徒雷登》。但是我认为最耐人寻味的还是最后一句话：美国人民的舆论抬头，美国才有这转变！

今天我又重读了一边<The Road to Surfdem>, 里面有一段话如下：

It is revealing that few planners today are content to say that central planning is desirable. Most of them affirm that we now are compelled to it by circumstances beyond our control.

看到这个，我想起了“和谐社会”和“稳定压倒一切”。最近我的另外一个博客博客风所在的服务器因为某些重大政治会议的即将召开而被和谐了。

这就是我们现在的现实，悲哀的现实！

Those who would give up essential liberty to purchase a little temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety.

------Benjamin Franklin

Terrorism and America!

 

The classic definition of terrorism is violence directed against civilians to make a political point. The term shouldn't be applied to an indigenous population fighting an irregular war against a foreign occupying army, since that would have made everyone from George Washington to the French Resistance to the Afghanis confronting the Soviet occupation "terrorists." Robert Parry Consortiumnews.com.

This is so damn correct! As something I have read before, U.S are using "terrorism" the same way as it did with "communism" during the cold war! A standing point for its military presents overseas as the international police.

American, at least in most of its modern time, was selling its value to other people and has done it pretty well without any big obstructions. They get used of being the propagators and started to take this as granted by God! So when things happen overseas that don't seem to follow the U.S way, instead of observering and learning them rationally, they will jump out of their trench, put a gun againest those guys' heads and put them on knees to follow! After doing this, they feel good about it, because they are making one more piece of this ugly, chaos world beautiful and back in order!

When we are reviewing the history, we always say "They should changed their policy then, and I also think they knew they should have changed it! But why haven't they?". It is true that big power like U.S knows in its gut when and why they should change their policy, but history tells us that few of them made it, eventually vanished as ashes. why?

I think bureaucracy plays a role here! Everyone in the game knows that they should change their course, yet no one wants to do so, because everyone worry about that he may be the one being sacrafied. When there are changes, there are lossers. No one can be sure who will be the lossers before the changes complete. Whey someone find there is nothing more he can lose, he raised up and called and led a revolution to change them all, at lease that's what they said at first. That's why I think progressive evolution has never been the milestone of history course, revolution is! American has never been a revolution nation! With all the respect to their contribution to the scientific innovation and cultural diversity, I think they have been, are and will be scared to death while facing big changes. They take current government as granted and only cycling its presidency; They take stability as granted and confused by the chaos elsewhere; They take freedom as granted and shocked by the way other people live on their way there. They take themselves as granted and deny the fact that there are other people out there equally share this planet.

Terrorism is just an arbitrary term! If there is no terrorism, there will be other-risms, just like terrorism following communism. So don't pay much attench to its meaning, it doesn't mean anything, but it matters everything if you are up to something!

Why is it so hard to admit the truth?

I was reading an article on National Geographic published in 2000. It is called "The New Cold War - Stalking Arctic Climate Change by Submarine", it was written by Glenn Hodges and talks about a science project to study the arctic so that we can know more about the relationship between global warming and Arctic iceburg melting down. It is an very old article published nearlly 7 years ago, you really don't expect to learn anything new there, it turns out otherwise.

Here I quote one paragraph from the article:

"Given that the Poles are widely seen as bellwethers of global climate change, this all looks very damatic. But it may be just another imagined monster lurking in the blank spots of our knowledge. Perhaps the water regularly warms and cools and the ice regularly thins and thickens as atmospheric pressures and water currents oscillate. There's evidence to suggest that, but it's not conclusice. ......So the questions remain: Will currents and temperatures revert to more familiar patterns? Or is the Arctic showing signs of global warming?"  "(Drew Rothrock, University of Washington reserch scientist.)I don't think you'd find many Arctic scientists willing to say, 'Yes, it's all melting up there, and in another decade we won't have any sea ice.'".

So how do scientists think about the issue now? Arctic Speciallist Mark Serreze said

"If you asked me a couple of years ago when the Arctic could lose all of its ice then I would have said 2100, or 2070 maybe. But now I think that 2030 is a reasonable estimate." 

A 2004 essay by Naomi Oreskes in the journal Science reported a survey of 928 abstracts of peer-reviewed papers related to global climate change in the ISI database.^[18] Oreskes stated that "Remarkably, none of the papers disagreed with the consensus position. ... This analysis shows that scientists publishing in the peer-reviewed literature agree with IPCC, the National Academy of Sciences, and the public statements of their professional societies." (Wikipedia)

Do you see how far we have come through in the last years? If you think you can still put out some argument againest this, then please let the data and facts talk themselves:

But are we really admiting the truth? Well, you wish! I just saw this piece of news CNN weatherman considers Gore's An Inconvenient Truth fiction. Or you can watch the video bellow:

I know that there are some debate about the exaggeration of data and fact in Al Gore's movie, but you know what? I believe "矫枉必过正", which means: If you want to correct something, normally you need to act excessively to achive so. When Rob Marciano or other critics talks about flaws in the movie, they may not intend to overthrow the whole movie and the global warming fact, but with the aid and inappropriate propganda of mass media, our mass audiences will get the impression that "Al Gore is wrong!" and eventually "Global warming isn't happening!"

With the obstructions of the bureaucracy, it is natural that government will not actively involved in the fighting againest global warming! So this is what you are seeing: the public NGOs are taking the centre stage while those big government leaders are spitting at others and taking photos.

To be honest, I am very pessimistic about global warming! I really don't think we have a chance to make things right, because we have already run out of time! Hopefully I am wrong!

Free WIFI Signal Booster

After moving to this new house, it is very hard to wire the Lan cable around to get broadband connected! My house mate suggested me to give wireless a try! This is not my first time to use wifi, but to be honest, I really didn't quite trust its stability! After using it for 2 days, I really changed my mind! The WIFI g standard is quite stable and fast.

Although I really cannot feel the lag, I still want to give the WIFI signal some boost! After some search, I found this Top 10 Wi-Fi Boosts, Tweaks and Apps, the second one is what I was looking for! It leads me to this website: FreeAntennas.com. Yes, that's the thing I need! So I made two of such antennas and give them a try! they work like a charm! The Wifi speed stayed below 40Mbps before, but now can stay in the peak level of 54Mbps.

Update: From Here, I learned that I can put one of the reflector on the receiver side. So here we go:

The result is even more amazing, the signal strength boosts from 65% to 85% and stays over there!

My new home!

I have moved to a new home last weekend! I was exhausted after moving all my staffs around! Here are some photos of my new room!

Running Safari using Webkit Nightly Build(Windows)

We are all very excited about the beta release of Safari for Windows, but it is very buggy right now. This is even worse for Non-English users, such as we Chinese. The current beta version 3.01 doesn't support Chinese language rendering. Now I will tell you how to solve it partially using Webkit Nightly Build

For those who don't know what Webkit is, here is a general idea: Webkit is the rendering engine of Safari. Apple has made it opensouce, so that developers from the community can contribute to it.

By update your Safari webkit to the latest nightly build, you can benefit from the  latest improvement, but of course you are at a risk of suffering new bugs as well. I have just update my Webkit to the latest(r23540), the very first improvement i can see is that now i can view Chinese websites, sadly, I still cannot imput Chinese. But who knows, maybe tomorrow the nightly build will solve this!

Here is the process of update your Webkit to the Nightly build:

1. download the Webkit Nightly Build  for Windows Here

2. Extract it somewhere, all files should be under a folder called "WebKit-r23540', the number varies on your nightly build version.

3. Go to your Program File/Safari folder, create a new folder called "New"

4. Copy the Webkit.dll from "WebKit-r23540" to the "New" folder.

5.  While browsing the folder Program Files/Safari, right click and choose "new">"shortcut". For the "Location", put 

 

%PROGRAMFILES%\Safari\Safari.exe /frameworkPath:"%PROGRAMFILES%\Safari\New"

 

For the "Name", just leave it as default.(Safari.exe).

6. Inside the "Webkit-r23540" folder, there should be a folder called"Webkit.resources", copy everything there to the "Webkit.resources" folder under your "Safari" folder. 

7. Done. Now you can double click the Safari.exe shorcut to launch Safari with the latest Webkit build. You can duplicate the shortcut wherever you like.

Note: Dont replace the original "Webkit.dll" under your Safari folder! It will ruin your Safari app and you have to reinstall it again. 

8. In order to render Chinese font properly, you'd better change the "Encoding" to "simplified Chinese". "Edit">"Preferrences">"Appearences" 

If you find there is new Webkit Build over the Webkit website and you want to update further, the only thing you need to do is to extract the latest "Webkit.dll" and replace the one in "New" with the new one. 

这他妈的是谁教的网页规范？

我今天已经出离愤怒了！刚才在网上搜索图片，结果找到这个中文网站，打开的是预览列表页面，但是半天显示不出三张图片，就感觉奇怪了。打开它的source code看到了下面的东西。

 

<A href="/gif/DetailView.htm?Detail=http://img3.3lian.com/2006/016/03/001.jpg" target=_blank><IMG height=190 alt="" src="http://img3.3lian.com/2006/016/03/001.jpg" width=126 border=0 pop="点击查看原图"></A>

 也就是说，他在预览页面根本没有对于原图片制作thumbnail,而是直接调用原图片作为预览显示！而且用height来人为缩小图片大小。当时就差点骂出声来！这他妈的是什么网页规范？难道用Photoshop对图片做个批处理就这么难吗？最近一直在看xhtml&css，对规范相当在意。你既然把网页架设起来，就是要让人家看的，如果你的网页因为coding不规范，影响用户浏览，就该骂！最近遇到相当多这类的事情，现在都什么时代了，国内某些自认高手的网站设计者连基本的w3c的标准都不知道是怎么一回事。就如同上次看到Wuvist写的，现在很多人连基本的html的规范对没有掌握，就屁颠颠得去搞php和asp。相当看不起这些人！

London 2012 Olympic Games Logo Launched!

Everything should be made as simple as possible, but not simpler. ~Albert Einstein
Simplicity is one thing, superficiality is another!-- Littleboy.

BackRow SDK unleashed for Apple TV from hacker.

So often time it happens, we all live our life in chains, and we never even know we have the key. ~The Eagles, "Already Gone"

The True Story of the Statue of Liberty

History does not teach fatalism. There are moments when the will of a handful of free men breaks through determinism and opens up new roads. ~Charles de Gaulle

Miss Universe 2007 - Riyo Mori

I'm tired of all this nonsense about beauty being only skin-deep. That's deep enough. What do you want - an adorable pancreas? ~Jean Kerr, The Snake Has All the Lines

I am banned from Digg(updated)

I am banned from Digg.com and cannot login and I did't do anything illegal. Here is a reasonable explanation for this, I am one of the victims of such cencorship! What the fuck are you doing, Digg.com? At least i can still browse the site.


(Updated: The problem is solved! I wrote them a email yesterday concerning about the issue, they asked me to test my ip address on digg.com/iptest. After i gave them the result, it took them less than 1 hour to solve the problem! And now it is back to normal! To be honest, their support team really did a very effective job on this! But why did they make such mistake at the first place?)

Longhorn Reloaded

He that is born to be hanged shall never be drowned.

《丧家狗，我读论语》

The past is our definition. We may strive, with good reason, to escape it, or to escape what is bad in it, but we will escape it only by adding something better to it. ~Wendell Berry

Wang Nan Beaten by Li Xiaoxia

The men who try to do something and fail are infinitely better than those who try to do nothing and succeed. ~Lloyd Jones

要和平，便不能继续伤害中国人的感情

今天拜读了龙先生（注：“先生”是对学者的尊称，不分男女。）的文章《要和平，便不能继续伤害台湾》，有些话不吐不快！我之所以用这个题目，是因为龙先生在自己的文章里面，口口声声地“中国”“台湾”的叫着，既然龙先生自己都不把自己当中国人了，我这里就把龙先生当成“台湾人”来对待。

龙先生的文章里面“成长的经验塑造价值”这一章里面论述的台湾人民的心态，我还是基本认同的，但是龙先开口闭口的“理性”，可是在这里，龙先生似乎“感性”的把问题的症结弄错了。台湾人的的确确是在“被封锁的”的状态下生存了很久，可是那个时候的封锁似乎是蒋先生的事情吧？即便你说一个巴掌拍不响，可是你在迁怒于人之前，至少要先清理清理你们“台湾”自己历史上的领导人吧？而且，既然是因为你们的成长经验塑造了你们现在的“价值”，那么，这个逻辑就怪了。你们自己跑到那个岛上去，被蒋先生“封锁”，这叫“自作自受”，然后形成了现在的“价值”，难道你们不应该为自己现在所具有的“价值”负责吗？那么它所带来的后果，你们似乎也没有借口去拒绝承受吧？

紧接着，龙先生笔锋一转开始讨论起中国的人权，进而说道台湾的人权，一开头我还有点蒙，后来看到这句话就完全明白了“全球社区的责任可能就在於，深刻认识这个价值观在变动中的新中国，然後清楚知道我们要做些什麽，不做些什麽，才能使中国内部理性、开放、和平的那一半力量在价值的拉锯中得到上风。”，无怪乎天天把“人权”挂在嘴边，似乎在你们眼里，人权是全人类的“道德法官”，任何事情，都必须是“人权挂帅”，唯人权马首是瞻！龙先生倒是很会转移目标和刀锋，知道法理和血缘上无法来解释“台湾”的主体型了，就开始“高姿态”起来，拿着西方的匕首，来割自己的脐带了？在我开来，人权是人权，但是他也仅仅是人权，请不要把它作为自己妄图分裂祖国，数典忘祖的借口。

另外，在这里，龙先生的本末倒置的逻辑也令人费解？请问现在中国为什么要如此的“封锁”台湾？看看你们的领导人的那些言行举止，还不明白吗？这好比一个罪犯，犯了罪，却怪罪别人处罚自己，而且还是打着“人权”的大旗！如果，你还是固执的说“台湾人民何罪？”，对不起，如果你试图把台湾人民和台湾的政治人物分割的话，那么请问你们的民主又是干什么的？难道你们的政治人物不是你们的“民主”选出来的吗？ “Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be. ~Grandma Moses”

而且，龙先生的标题给人的感觉好像现在是中国在死皮赖脸的渴求台湾赐予和平的样子，请先弄清楚棋手是谁吧，台湾只不过是一个棋子！

所以，龙先生，如果你还想要和平的话，就请不要再拿一些实在可笑的借口为自己的数典忘祖开脱，继续伤害中国人的感情了！

龙应台原文参看这里 《要和平，便不能继续伤害台湾》

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Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be. ~Grandma Moses

Hate Crime Laws

Two girls were arrested in McHenry County, Illinois last week for distributing flyers at their school that depicted a male classmate kissing another classmate and had the words "God Hates Fags" on the flyers. The two were charged with disorderly conduct and felony hate crimes. As can be expected, debate has been generated on the wisdom of hate crimes laws, debate that's not confined solely to the right. Even gay sites are not entirely behind the arrest and charging of these girls for a minor stunt.

16-year Old Girl Denied Bail for "God Hates Fags" Flyer

I had no idea before that this law exists. And it is very obvious that people will think of it as some kind of violation againest the First Amendment! but it does has its own stands, especially after people witnessing the "Final solution" and the "Genocide in Rwanda". This is what people called a "dilemma"! If you think deeply into it, you will find that we humanbeings planted and promoted such things ourselves. and believe or not, we will see more and more of such kinds.

More about the "Hate crime laws", plrease refer to

Hate crime - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

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Every civilization is, among other things, an arrangement for domesticating the passions and setting them to do useful work. ~Aldous Huxley

论教育

有几个朋友是小学的语文老师，所以在平时闲谈的时候难免会提到小孩子的教育问题，里面有值得思考的地方，当然也有很多激愤之语，比如“某某学生，我看到他， 就想把他给掐死，方能解除我心头的郁闷之气”。不过，这些也都是朋友之间调侃耍浑而已，没有谁真的敢去掐死哪个学生。在新加坡，别说掐死，连最基本的体罚 也都是被禁止的。

因为和朋友讨论的问题都局限在大众教育的范畴，也就是传统意义上的学校教育，所以，下面所探讨的教育，都是仅仅局限在学校教育这个范畴。

教育的目的

那么教育应该达到的目的是什么呢？注意，我这里指出的是“应该”，也就是说，现实中他的目的未必如此。讨论如何达到下面的目的，那将是教育体制的问题，

有人说，教育是为了把人从错误，邪恶的一端拉回到正确的一端！是为了教导孩子是非观念，教导孩子什么是对的，该做的，什么是错的，不该做的。但是我认为这个 目的太天真，而且不具备任何的可操作性！如果说目的真的是教导是非观念，那么教育者必须对于是非观念是十分清楚地，是非观念是不应该因为教育者个体的不同 而引起差别的事物。可是现实中的是非观念却完全不是这个样子！任何一个人的是非观念都是不同的，即便是两个立场和观点相当一致的人，他们在处理具体事物的 时候，其是非观念的差别也是惊人的！何况人的是非观念并不是一成不变的，如果是那样，那么其实人根本就不会具有任何的是非观念！因为是非观念是在人作为社 会成员和具有自觉意识的个体在成长的过程中慢慢积累和养成的。人在刚出生的时候，并不具备任何的是非观念，只具备动物的本能，而动物的本能是意欲的范畴， 是非观念是意识的范畴，是不同的概念。这样一来，既然教育者本身对于是非观念都是不确定的，那么你有怎么能够期待将这个作为教育的目的呢？

在这个论点之后，或许会有两个新的论点产生：其一，即便每个人的是非观念都不一样，而且是可变化的，教育也是需要和可以达到这个目的的，只过不实现的是个人 人格力量的继承和传递。其二，尽管每个人的是非观念都不一样，但是教育者可以总结和提炼出一套大家都认同的是非观念，然后传授给学生。

对于第一个新论点，我不想做过多的分析，难道我们教育的目的就是像掷色子一样，把学生的是非观念随机的交给几个人负责吗？

至于第二个新论点，则是值得深入探讨一下。这个论点是建立在两个问题之上的：甲，我们是否能够真正的达成所谓的”一套大家都认同的是非观念”？乙，教育者能否将这“一套大家都认同的是非观念”教授给学生？

我们是否能够真正的达成所谓的“一套大家都认同的是非观念”？如果真是如此，那么这个世界上也就不会产生这么多的矛盾摩擦了。因为是非观念的养成与个人的生 活经历以及生活环境有着很大的关系，而任何两个人，即便是同卵双胞胎，他们的生活经历都不可能是完全相同的，（你能保证同卵双胞胎每次都是同时上厕所 吗？）这就注定所有人的是非观念都是不同的。另一方面，人的是非观念不是一种容易妥协的事物！“江山易改，本性难移”。一旦个人过去生命历程的时间累加到 这个人的阅历上，他所积累起来的观念，如果可以一百八十度大转弯的话，也是需要新的时间和环境来累积的。何况，即便在相同的环境下面，任何两个个体都不可 能同时拥有完全相同的物理存在，这就是说，新的“差异”就会在你试图达成“妥协”的时候产生了！这将是一个无穷尽的过程。所以，是不存在“一套大家都认同 的是非观念”的。有人或许会说“大多数人认同的观念呢？”这个问题的本质和上面的第一个新论点“随机的是非观念的灌输”是一样的，只不过，从“一个教育者 的是非观念”变成“几个人的是非观念”而已，这里就不敷衍了。

既然第一个问题“我们是否能够真正的达成所谓的‘一套大家都认同的是非观念’？”的答案是否定的，那么就自然中止了第二个问题讨论的必要性。不过我倒是乐意 在这里假设一下，如果第一个问题的答案是正确的，那么教育者是否就能够真地将这一套“大家都认同的是非观念”教授给人呢？答案也是否定的！必须指出，上面 的这个假设属于概念假设，而非逻辑假设，也就是说这个假设仅仅能够作为第二个问题开始的概念基础，而不能够被用于推导任何其他的关联理论。这样一旦假设建 立，那么作为假设的这个“是非观念”就会成为一个单独的概念，达成这一“共同的是非观念”的个体，没有必要完全认同这个是非观念。既然每一个人的是非理论 都是不同的，那么他对于这一套“是非观念”的理解和掌握，自然也是不同的，这样，在教授给别人的时候，你是无法确保他的完美和准确性的。

这样，我们就否定了第二个新论点，结合第一个新论点的否定和之前主论点的阐述，我认为，教育的目的不应该是“教导是非观念”的。

待续。

陈晓旭去了！

葬花词

花谢花飞飞满天，红消香断有谁怜？

游丝软系飘春榭，落絮轻沾扑乡帘。

闺中女儿惜春暮，愁绪满怀无着处；

手把花锄出乡帘，忍踏落花来复去。

柳丝榆荚自芳菲，不管桃飘与李飞，

桃李明年能再发，明年闺中知有谁？

三月香巢初垒成，梁间燕子太无情；

明年花发虽可啄，却不道人去梁空巢已倾？

一年三百六十日，风刀霜剑严相逼；

明媚鲜妍能几时，一朝飘泊难寻觅。

花开易见落难寻，阶前愁杀葬花人；

独把花锄偷洒泪，洒上空枝见血痕。

杜鹃无语正黄昏，荷锄归去掩重门；

青灯照壁人初睡，冷雨敲窗被未温！

怪侬底事倍伤神？半为怜春半恼春。

怜春忽至恼忽去，至又无言去不闻。

昨宵庭外悲歌发，知是花魂与鸟魂？

花魂鸟魂总难留，鸟自无言花自羞。

愿侬此日生双翼，随花飞到天尽头。

天尽头，何处有香丘？

未若锦囊收艳骨，一捧净土掩风流。

质本洁来还洁去，不教污掉陷渠沟。

尔今死去侬收葬，未卜侬身何日丧！

侬今葬花人笑痴，他年葬侬知是谁！

试看春残花渐落，便是红颜老死时。

一朝春尽红颜老，花落人亡两不知！

哲学

最近一直在读有关哲学方面的书。一开始是读中文版的叔本华，里面很多东西 对人的思维很有启发性。他关于教育的一些理念和见解，会让你恍惚明白我们教育 的弊病的根源所在。我们天天喊着素质教育，可是又有几个人对于何谓素质，何谓 教育进行过深层的思考呢？或许也只有这些哲学家才会去伤尽脑汁的去思索。但是 看完他的《论教育》，你会发现，他其实并没有给我们提供任何的解决之道，他只是 揭示了这内在的道理。诚如他在《论天才》一章里提到的“天才只是给你展现客观事 物的本质，而机灵的人才会努力发现事物的联系”，所以机灵的人永远无法成为天才。

关于天才，叔本华也利用自己的逻辑体系给出了我认为相对还十分合理的解 释，那就是“智力摆脱为意欲服务的束缚而自由的观察世界”。他认为人的智力的自 然功用是纯粹为了我们的意欲服务的，都是含有这样那样的目的的，正常的人的智 力仅仅能够满足自己意欲的需求，甚至还不足。即便智力能够偶尔摆脱意欲的束 缚，因为失去了目的性的动力，往往智力都会松懈和疲惫下来，根本无法进行自由 的活动。而天才的差别就在于，他们的智力和意欲的比例远远高于常人，而且智力 即使在摆脱意欲之后，依然可以活跃！但是，因为智力的自然和正常功用是服务于 意欲，所以一旦摆脱，就会出现很多反常的情形，这就可以解释为什么那些天才们 会有时表现的十分怪诞和不修边幅了。这里，他也比较了天才和孩童的相似之处。 因为人的智力的发育远远早于人的肉体机能，所以在孩童时期，人的智力和意欲的 比例是很高的。所以某种意义上“每一个孩子都是天才”。

当然，这里你会发现他十分的强调意欲和智力的关系，在我看来，这是叔本华思想的根基，这个在他后面的《论意欲在自我意识中的作用》中也有提到，但是从他 里面数次提及来看，对于这部分的解释，我似乎应该参考他的另外一部著作《作为 意志和表象的世界》。

另外，我刚刚开始读Bertrand Russell的英文原版。我发现这本书所探讨的问题的深度要远远超过叔本华的那些讨论，因为 Russell这里探讨的是物质的存在性！这个问题的重要性似乎有点类似于数学里面 的歌德巴赫猜想！目前还没有看完，希望看完之后不会迷糊。

看了这些书之后，我一直在想一个问题“这些哲学的功用何在？是否有所谓的普世的现实意义呢？”难道真的如叔本华所说的“天才的工作从来不是为了现实服务 的”？

如果哲学只是象牙塔里的学问，那么就要引申出另外一个问题：“个人或者极 少数人的思想对于人类的思想影响力究竟有多大？是如何实现这种影响力的呢？”
“学而不思则罔”。要思考，要思考。

韓復榘的一次演讲[转]

本人很少转载东西的，但是这篇文章是必须转一下的，实在是太好笑了 。这个山东王的荒唐嘴脸从这篇演讲中就可见一斑了。

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山東省主席韓復榘在齊魯大學的一次演講文：

諸位、各位、在齊位：今天是什麼天氣，今天就是演講的天氣。來賓十分茂盛，敝人也實在感冒。今天來的人不少咧，看樣子大體有8/5啦，來到的不說，沒來的把手舉起來！很好，都來了！
　　今天兄弟召集大家來訓一訓，兄弟有說得不對的，大家應該相互原諒。你們是文化人，都是大學生、中學生、留洋生。你們這些烏合之眾是科學科的，化學化 的，都懂得七八國英文，兄弟我是大老粗，連中國的英文都不懂。你們大家都是筆桿子裏爬出來的，我是炮筒子裏鑽出來的。今天來這裏講話，真使我蓬蓽生輝，感 恩戴德。其實，我沒有資格給你們講話，講起來嘛，就像對牛彈琴，也可以說是鶴立雞群了。
　　今天，不準備多講，先講三個綱目。蔣委員長的新生活運動，兄弟我舉雙手贊成。就一條，行人靠右走，著實不妥。大家想想，行人都靠右走，那左邊留給誰 呢？還有件事，兄弟我想不通。外國人在北京東交民巷都建立了大使館，就缺我們中國的。我們中國為什麼不在那兒建個大使館呢？說來說去，中國人真是太軟弱 了。第三個綱目，學生籃球賽，肯定是總務長貪污了。那學校為什麼會那麼窮酸？十來個人穿著褲衩搶一個球，像什麼樣？多不雅觀。明天到我公館領筆錢，多買幾 個球，一人發一個，省得再你爭我搶的。
　　今天這裏沒有外人，也沒有壞人，所以我想告訴大家三個機密：第一個機密暫時不能告訴大家，第二個機密的內容跟第一個機密一個樣，第三個機密前面兩點已經講了，今天的演講就到這裏，謝謝諸位。

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Web 2.0 历史性的一天 --- 密码门事件

刚刚过去的这一天应该称得上是Web 2.0历史性的一天，因为digg上发生了“密码门事件”。

事件的过程是这样的：

有人在digg上面发布了一条新闻，是有关一个可以破解当前很多HD-DVD的加密程序的密码，这条新闻迅速被用户点击攀高。而此时digg的一个赞助商针对于此，给digg发了一封警告信，指出此类新闻可能会给网站带来十分麻烦的法律纠纷。于是一个看似不可能的事情发生了: digg人为删掉了这条新闻，并且禁了很多人的用户权。随后，digg用户就发起了垃圾攻击，采用一切可以采用的手段在digg网站上散布这个密码，依此抗议digg的做法。一开始，大家的做法大都是直接提交新的关于密码的主题，而digg自然也不甘示弱，通过修改网站程序对这个密码进行自动封杀。但是到了后来，用户们进行垃圾攻击的手段就开始推陈出新，五花八门了，各种各样的回复里都穿插这个密码，高峰时刻，digg几近瘫痪，正常的新闻和评论完全被淹没。最后，digg的创始人和现在的老板之一Kavin Rose在digg的博客发表了一篇简短的文章，里面有一段：

But now, after seeing hundreds of stories and reading thousands of comments, you’ve made it clear. You’d rather see Digg go down fighting than bow down to a bigger company. We hear you, and effective immediately we won’t delete stories or comments containing the code and will deal with whatever the consequences might be.

If we lose, then what the hell, at least we died trying.

意思在明显不过了：既然如此多的用户用行动向我们表明，他们宁肯看到digg为了用户的民主而战死，也不愿看到digg向大公司屈服，那么digg就成全和顺从用户的意愿，不再删除有关密码的新闻和评论，而且愿意承担因此带来的一切后果！

这就是整个事件的前因后果。说完了事实，我们就来讨论一下这件事情可能会给web 2.0带来什么东西。

首先，明确什么是web 2.0. 其实这个概念目前来看，是很不清楚的，完全没有什么标准的答案，而且很多人在使用这个词汇的时候甚至都搞不清楚web 2.0的一些基本的概念。下面是我对于web 2.0网站的理解。

其一，网站原始数据的提供方只有用户本身。这是不同于以前网站的一个很突出的地方。整个网站的架构是由开发者设立的，但是开发者不应该，或者应该尽量减少对于网站原始数据的干预。注意我这里的“原始”二字，就是说开发者和维护者完全可以利用这些原始数据，进行一些初级的统计，然后将统计的结果（二级数据）以一种更加直观的方式呈现出来，甚至引用这些二级数据进行再开发。

其二，网站里的所有用户都是机会平等的，网站要努力避免不平等机会的存在。网站不应该人为设置一些特权，进行刻意的等级划分。这里注意我说的是“机会平等”，而没有直接说“平等”。也就是说，在网站的某一个特定状态下，比如某一时刻，网站里面用户未必是绝对平等的。比如某些用户因为加入时间比较长，参加的网站活动比较多，其他用户对该用户的信任程度和其他人自然是不同的，这里可以成为“用户认同度”。但是要知道，这些所谓的“不平等”，是在大家平等机会的基础上，由客观事实的演变而造成的，并不是网站刻意所为。

其三，用户对自己接触的内容有较大的自决权，网站要努力提供用户更多的自决权。用户可以更加自由和自主地选择自己希望接触的内容，而不是一味的等待网站的分配。因为技术性的问题，所以这种自决权也只是“较大”而已，不可能实现完全自决。

以上就是我对于web 2.0的理解。另外，从用户界面方面来讲，web 2.0往往会采用一些诸如ajax之类的技术，另外，在网站外观设计上，也似乎有一些规律性的东西，比如镜像投影的使用，大字体、玻璃渐变等运用，但是这些都只是表象而已，紧紧是为了提供更好的用户体验。因为他们紧紧是技术，所以任何网站都可以采用，不仅仅局限于web 2.0. 所以这些都不算是web 2.0定义或划界地依据。

了解了什么是web 2.0,我们再回到文章一开始说的那个“密码门事件”。

Digg是一个地地道道的web 2.0网站，实际上，他算是web 2.0里面比较早，而且目前影响比较广的几个网站之一。在这起事件里面，很明显digg却违背了上面web 2.0原则里面的第一点和第三点，就是网站人为干预了原始数据的存入过程，从而影响了用户对于内容的自决权！也就是传统上讲的网络监管！但是这并不意味着digg有什么做错的地方。

而谈到此，就不得不提出另外一个digg用户们天天挂在嘴边的名字“网络民主”！在很多digg用户看来，digg一直都是标榜“网络民主”的，今天却干了妨碍民主的事情！而用户们对于民主的理解，我认为可以如此解释：网站维护者一旦把网站推出，交给了web 2.0的网络用户，并且依靠用户的原始资料进行运作，那么用户对于网站的内容就具有绝对的民主，就是说不管我做了什么事情，都不允许网站维护者指手画脚，宁其自生自灭。大家仔细想想就会发现，其实这个“绝对民主”就是“无政府主义”，是把web 2.0的三个原则进行无限制化的扩大，尤其是第三条原则！这就要谈到我在第三条原则里面提到的“技术性的问题”！ 什么是技术性问题？网站是一条连接虚拟世界和现实世界的绳子，一头是web 2.0下面极力鼓吹“绝对民主”的用户，另外一头确是生活在现实世界的网站维护者和经营者。而这两者的利益未必是一致的！这从上面Kevin的那封信里就可以看得出了。在digg建立至今相当长的时间里，Kevin一直是试图把两者的利益结合在一起，达成一致，从而形成共赢的局面。然而这个“密码门事件”却把这两者利益放到了放大镜下面。如果用户执意于“绝对民主”，那么他们就要面对网站倒闭的后果，而其实他们却又不是后果的真正承担者，正如一个digg用户说的一样：我们最多失去了一个很不错的网站而已！而网站运营者失去的似乎就不仅仅如此了。有些用户提出所谓政府法律的网络适用性问题，认为这起事件根本不会给digg带来什么法律纠纷！这个我还没有仔细的去查过。即便如此，作为digg网站的广告赞助商们，他们却不得不考虑因为这起事件而给digg声望带来的影响，以及因此带来的软性商业负面化！

我认为，任何人都可以去追求“绝对民主”，但是没有人保证digg就是一个绝对民主的地方，何况在任何一个用户注册的时候都是认同了“用户须知”的，而那里面仔仔细细的写明了：

You agree not to use the Services:

…

2. to contribute any Content that is infringing, libelous, defamatory, obscene, pornographic, abusive, offensive or otherwise violates any law or right of any third party;

…

6. to violate any laws in your jurisdiction (including but not limited to copyright laws);

所以，这些发布此类信息的用户，首先是自己违反了游戏规则，现在又通过耍无赖的手段，逼迫游戏主办方修改游戏规则！而且是以冠冕堂皇的携民意的借口！如果你希望追求绝对民主，那么就请先从现实入手，把社会推到一个无政府状态之后，再去要求一个网站运营者来实行绝对民主。而Kevin却就如此轻而易举的屈服了（50000多条的认同投票）！而且，另外一个问题是，这所谓的民意是不是真正的“大多数”呢？这个问题不解决，那么这所谓的民主岂不就成了被挟持的民主了？

Kevin在这件事情的表态，恐怕会给所有web 2.0网站的运营者起了一个很不好的头，从而助长了用户的气焰，而忽视了基本的网络道德和游戏规则的存在！

这是让人伤心的一天，不仅仅因为我无法正常的查看digg里面正常的新闻，更因为我为digg感到失望，为digg用户感到失望。

香火

一把香火

全是黄土

烧掉的是三十分钟的生命

升腾的是欲望

和轻浮

剩下一堆灰烬

一阵风后

都落了地

入了泥土

泳池有感

泳池有感

一头扎进水
失去混浊的空气
远离凹凸的泥地
没了欢笑
但也没有哭泣
浮的自在
沉的畅意
眼前一片澄清
不在看鼻孔喘气
此时的我
好想一口气憋到底

刚才Leo问起为什么好久不见我写诗了。实在是懒得要命，又兼有江郎才尽之兆，实在是没什么东西可以拿出来的。不过又仔细一想，或好或坏，写总比不写要强些，免得那一天有好感情，好意境了，却发现没了气力和能耐了。此一想来，唏嘘不已，还是写吧。

我的文集

最近闲着没事，另外加上特殊需要，就把以前发表的一些文章归结了一下。喜欢的朋友可以下载。

竞技麻将这么简单吗？

竞技麻将这么简单吗？

杨国纬

　　林冠雄君在《麻将何罪？》一文里对竞技麻将推崇有加，眼看麻将大赛胎死腹中而愤愤不平。

　　麻将的确已经进入了中国的千家万户，可是，它却并不是以“智力活动”的形式存在的！中国的麻将或多或少的都是与赌博挂钩，或三毛五毛，或几百上千，差别只在赌注的多寡。

　　有人认为适当的小赌并无大碍。可是在我看来，赌就是赌，没有所谓的“小赌怡情”。任何类型的赌博都是从小赌开始，进而大赌上瘾的。而一旦赌博成为一种社会风气，对于社会的危害不言而喻。

　 　正是基于对此的担忧，中国体育总局才会出台竞技规则，对麻将这种活动进行规范和引导，这些都可以从规则的前言部分看出来：“充分地看到麻将运动本身所具 有的积极的社会意义和其本身滋生的弊端，采取扬弃的方法对其进行积极的疏导和改造，弃恶扬善，除旧布新，才是使这项传统的智力运动走上健康、文明的发展之 路的当然之举。”

　　即便如此，体育总局在对待麻将“竞技化”问题时，依然是摸着石头过河，成功与否都难下定论“用科学的理念和严格的规范，赋予麻将运动全新的文化内涵，绝非一朝一夕之事。”

　　以上就是中国所谓的“竞技麻将”的背景和现状，在中国这个禁赌的国家里，既然麻将这种赌博性质的“智力运动”依然泛滥成灾，无法遏制，那么就必然要想办法尽量减少它的危害性！可是新加坡这边的情况是不同的。

　 　首先，麻将的普及性并不是很高；其次，除了彩票之外，还有赌马以及邻近的云顶等地方可以进行其他形式的赌博，一定程度上满足了民众对赌的需求。现在，新 加坡马上也要开设赌场了，这势必会助长社会上的嗜赌的风气，接触赌博和沾染赌瘾的人数势必要有所增加，林君却呼吁现在要把麻将普及化，这合适吗？其实并不 存在真正意义上的“竞技麻将”和“赌博麻将”的区分，那只是有关主办者的一厢情愿而已，一旦麻将的风气出现了，那么从“竞技”到“赌博”，只是一线之隔而 已。

　　并不是所有的东西都是可以拿过来为新加坡所用的，社会大环境不同，那么就必须认真考虑同样的事情所会造成的不同的后果，盲目的去比较，生搬硬套是不行的。

　 　麻将的确存在其自身的技巧性，然而，和围棋、象棋、足球等比较起来，作为一个麻将的玩家，我认为麻将的运气成分太大，其技巧在这里俨然成了陪衬。这也是 所有赌博的一个通性。所以，麻将对于智力的培养功效，我是深深表示怀疑的，既然有那么多的可以激发智力的活动，为什么偏偏要选麻将呢？

 　　最后，即便主办者认为麻将这种形式可以利用，也不能允许在籍学生参与吧！有人在讨论里面指出“我觉得麻将比赛没什么，毕竟孩子到了18岁，应该有辨别 是非的能力。”作为进入社会的成年人的我们，在对待麻将大赛的问题上如此立场不一，争论不休，我们又怎么能期待学生培养辨别是非的能力？

 

转载自《联合早报》3月8号 

又是空卷而归!

今天拿到了冲洗完的胶卷，我的心都碎了！又是没有上好卷，全部是空的！这里面是昨天去动物园拍的，其中很多蝴蝶的微距照片还有几张临时找随行朋友作模特的很有意境的片子都泡汤了。。。。。。

我现在的心情按照Friends里面Rachel的说法：“There is the rock bottom...50 feet of crap....then me..” 

Google goes crazy!

 This is the first time i encounter such error! I am not sure whether it is some kind of new anti-spam mechanism or what. During 30 mins, i was asked  to fill such kind of code twice. Same thing happens to my roommate tonight.... 

对岸

你踩着柔沙

倚在对岸

我们中间

是澎湃的心和涨潮的脸

我聆听浪花拍打礁石

里面有你娇羞的暖

每一个有雨的日子

我都不敢呐喊

怕被雨水带过大海

惊了你长长的忧叹 

没有翅膀的鱼

双脚踏进了门
心丢在了夜车上
满屋子的喧哗和明亮
都被封在云层之上
自己却匍匐在冻土里
像一条没有翅膀的鱼
真希望泪水再多一点
没过乌云
让我游到天外 

风的约会

风，瞒着阳光

清晨赶着和我约会

都怪我

把秋天从思绪中放出来赎罪

倒是忘记给她撑伞

雨一起

就躲到了窗边，连廊和楼道

扎成了堆

等雨尽了

潮气裹着天边的云辉

她又偷偷鼓着笑

在我嘴边吹

乌鸦

唾沫星子

把天空吐黑了一片

只剩下弯弯的一处伤疤

一颗两颗

那说话碰掉的牙

就算信了上帝

昧着心

没了谎话

还是那满世界的

叽叽喳喳 

22号囚车

蜂拥而上的囚徒

把链条锁紧

身子别乱晃

快给我向后面滚

不要妄想窗外的空气

那只是阳光缺少了水分

瞪大眼睛干嘛？

在这活生生的囚车上

下一站或许就轮到你

还有什么可忍？

趁没有到站

赶紧招呼身边某人的某人

僵木的灵魂

就算相互嘲笑

也好过到死都在发闷 

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昨天下班，坐22号公车回家途中，有感而发，一气呵成，今天稍作修改！

生活在动荡的年代

    我们生活在动荡的年代，是幸运还是不幸？

    刚来到新加坡的时候，还时常跑到新浪去看国内的新闻。因为那个时候总觉得在广袤的海洋那边的那片土地，才是自己关心的地方，而这个小到我都记不清面积的小岛还有那犹如桑那的天气，只是我生命旅程中微不足道的旅馆。我们这些年轻抱负的青年人，在这个鸟不生蛋的地方，住不了多久，自然这里发生的事情似乎也和自己无关。当然，不得不说的另外一个理由就是，那个时候，自己似乎对于英文的媒体和社会也是一无所知，就更谈不上去英文网站逛了。

    时过境迁，五年过去了，我，还是生活在这个连乌鸦也未必愿意生蛋的地方，乌鸦生蛋与否未必与我有关，但是我却越来越多的关注这个社会，这个连天阴雨的热带小岛！而且似乎它是不是岛都已经无所谓了，因为我已经太习惯这里的一切，太把这里的一切相当然的认为理所当然和生活的默认，而且，现在的自己似乎比以前更加的国际化和忧国忧民了，只不过，大多数情况下，自己敏感而浅薄的思维触须碰触到都是那些和自己更加没有关系的千里之外的异域之邦。台湾大选，我会为小马哥指点迷津，坐山观虎斗；中东危机，我会诅咒完这厢，又为对方的行为感到恶心；美国总统选举和中期选举，我也会盯着CNN看完选举直播再看专家点评！而这个时候的我，对于新浪网，却是逐渐的生疏，都已经忘记还有中文新闻的存在！

    然而，有些事情是你无法回避的，在我呆在国外的这五年里，明显的感觉到所谓的西方媒体对于中国新闻报道的日益关注，而且这些新闻大多是关于经济的，即便是政治新闻，经济的影子也都是清晰可见。所以，我就再一次的把目光投向了那个曾经熟悉的国度，突然发现，它很陌生了！

    以前总觉得改革开放是很伟大，但是至于如何伟大，我没有任何概念，甚至就没有去想象过；而至于以前课本里所提到的所谓的“三步走”的战略目标，那时候也只是把它作为和其他任何政治口号一样来对待，就是说：听听就好，不必认真！可是，当我们还在嘲笑“赶英超美”口号的荒唐和不切实际时，中国的经济总量已经真真实实的超过了英国！而当我们还在回味“资本主义贫富差距”的罪恶的时候，中国的阶级分化和贫富两极化已经令人瞠目结舌；当我们还在谴责美国对第三世界经济援助是假，政治控制是真时，中国在非洲和拉丁美洲为能源而政治的手段却变得驾轻就熟；当我们还在为学习英语而苦恼的时候，全球的汉语热已经滚滚而来。是的，就在我们离开那片土地的五年间，这一切就真真切切的发生了，如同一切见证历史却忽略其意义的人一样，我们似乎都把这一切看得太平淡，又或许，大家已经被那无形的资本的铁链牢牢锁住，为了老板的剩余价值而奔波不已！

    是的，中国正在改变，或者说是崛起。不管你处于何种目的，似乎都无法否认这个事实。更何况你是它的一份子！对也罢，错也好，中国的“原始资本积累”就在社会主义的呵护下发生着。然而，较之于经济和政治的巨大变革来说，文化的演变和思想的动荡，尽管会比前者来的稍微晚一些，其影响的深远性却绝对有过之而无不及。前几天看到凤凰卫视关于2006年文化现象的一个节目，或许就可以一窥目前和将来一段时间中国社会思想和文化的发展脉络！

    自然，要谈这么大的问题，就又要免不了搬出大家都耳熟能详却似乎很遥远的中国近代史来，中国人如何失去信心，如何自甘堕落，如何精神的孔乙己等等！不过，归结起来，结论大都是一样的，就是回答人类生存的最基本的三个问题：我是谁？我从哪里来？我要到哪里去？ 三个问题紧密相连，环环相扣。

    我从哪里来？什么是中国文化？我们应该如何继承中国传统文化？如何处理存留的取舍问题？在这里，你就会发现大家真真切切的是在百家争鸣了。一边复古尊孔的风气日渐丰盛，一边却看是拿中医中药和龙开刀，双方似乎都是要证明些什么，却都是争个耳红脸赤却不了了之。一边为了科学而义正词严，一边也是为了传统文化而道貌岸然；

    那么，大家为什么突然之间对那些老的都已经泛黄变脆的古董如此感兴趣以至于到人身攻击呢？因为大家都心虚的厉害！为什么心虚？因为大家都不知道自己是谁，就好像一个孩子有一天突然怀疑自己到底是不是野孩子一样，因为周围很多人都声称他们才是自己父母的亲生孩子，你说你能不急吗？更何况以前相当长的一段时间，你的表现又很差，家长对你印象就不怎么样，好不容易最近开始良心发现，奋发图强了，可是心里还是没有底，不知道别人到底怎么看自己！而且中国人现在一个很严重的问题就是，信仰的丧失。信仰这个东西，未必是个好东西，但是如果失去了，结果就很令人担心了！中国人骨子里其实就没有狂热信仰的基因，我们其实是最善于趋炎附势和糊弄过关的！可是当无数的新鲜思潮涌入，每个人都说不一样的话，信仰不一样的东西时，你就是再无所谓，再能糊弄，总也要研究和苦恼一番罢？何况自己还有那一直找不回来的自信呢！

    最后一个问题“我们要到哪里去？”或许未必显得那么明显，可是却是隐藏在热闹非凡的前两个问题讨论底下的内因！因为中国人尽管已经对自己的经济发展和政治影响的增强没有任何怀疑，可是我们对于未来的世界和自己的确没有任何的概念，我们能够记得的世界历史里面，中国始终是受欺辱的。一直受欺辱又一个好处，那就是不必学习和思考如何站起来。可是我们现在似乎必须要考虑这个问题了，我们却还是畏首畏尾的用一本《论语》来做遮羞布，尽管我们已经不需要遮羞布了！而有些人却倒好，拿着愚蠢当机灵，拿着无知当文明，到头来欲盖弥彰！

    或许这个过程的确需要很长的时间，来调整自己，也调整别人，这是必须的，也是有意义的。而这个调整的过程，却未必显得如此积极和让人振奋了，因为做为个人的你和我，生命的短暂限制了我们的眼光，我们很不幸的只能看到和感受到这个过程的热闹和喧嚣，似乎每个人都迷失了方向，在出现灯光之前，只能茫然的跟着金钱和各种欲望的鬼火前行！

    我们生活在动荡的年代，是幸运还是不幸？ 

挣扎的笑

从黎明的乌洛
跑到黄昏的宏茂桥
全身的血管淌着车流
皮肤嗅出水泥的味道
夜，比星星还多
只有黎明时
才偷瞄一眼枝头的乌鸦
至少他们有飞翔的那一秒
掐着脖子呼吸
我已经习惯和忘记了挣扎的笑

雨

雨

就像醉了一样

絮絮叨叨

到了年底

扯千丈二的抹布

擦干呕吐过后的天空

翻出蓝白的内里

晒一晒

好准备新的酒席